As many of my best blogs do, this one started with a conversation with Maija Soderholm
Conversation with Maija -
Maija: I am working a lot and trying to get my creativity and motivation back. Isolation did a number on that
Kasey: I hear that. It has been a weird few years
Maija: It truly has. I have found I am motivated by conversation and practice WITH others, and am very bored listening to the voice in my head lol.
Kasey: I think people forget humans are social creatures - need tribes not only for survival , but basic maintenance / wellbeing. People forget until that is gone and the absence is felt.
I legit put on over 30 lbs. of boohoo I'm sad that I can't wrestle my friends so I guess I should eat like shit to make myself feel better weight.
Maija: I think this has been a common occurrence.. seeing pictures of our good friends [names redacted] brought it home lol.
Kasey: Luckily I was able to get some things in my head straight (straighter?) and I dropped 40 - but that was rough. Things are picking back up on my side. But It was so weird to look for that passion / fire for the things I love to do and find nothing
Maija: I'm still climbing the hill. I do teach an in person Bagua class again so that's awesome, but no regular Eskrima yet and my skills are getting rusty 🙁. Also need to get fitter.
Kasey: I hear that sister! If it is any help there is light at the end. Being with people helps that strength return.
That is the last step I think in reclaiming "me" I guess - the juice in the tank to share my thoughts with others. That is why this blog entry is the first part of the me I want to be series.
Gas in the tank / emotional energy is one aspect, choosing your battles is another.
Deciding to fight, what is worth fighting for? Why do we fight over ridiculous things?
Since my last blog post, I've been accused of promoting rape culture for sharing a picture of Ravishing Rick Rude, a famous wrestling heel from the 80's. I've also received criticism over mundane popular culture posts and humorous memes expressing opinions about the efficacy of wearing masks. What is my opinion? It doesn't really matter what my opinion is. I have every right to express it as I see fit.
I had a legitimate fear of being cancelled. How am I going to help promote #500 (something I am sincerely passionate about) if I'm getting yelp reviews calling me a misogynist? Also, its been a long 18 months and I really didn't have the energy to fight a fight that would put unwanted attention on me.